I am currently flying to Sydney. I’m going to apply for a new passport. Something I didn’t know I’d be doing a month ago hahaaa. I’ll be there just over night. Just a quick trip to sort this out and then I can stay in the country and fly legally! Woohoo!
I’ve seen God and learned lots about His character through this whole passport situation. There were days in these past few weeks when I thought “Holy moly, God, are you sending me back to Texas?” and other days I’d be just in awe of the vastness of God’s goodness and the assurance that I am in fact meant to be in Australia.
My mindset on a few things has changed. Simple truths have affirmed and I can sure of these things:
God is good all the time.
He is faithful, even when I am not.
Faith is a decision of trust, not mere hope.
He loves to give gifts.
I am blessed and community is important.
All these are things I could’ve told you, having grown up in the church and knowing all the christianese. But now I can tell you these things in confidence and because I have seen these truths active in my own life.
I learned how to ask questions without doubting God’s character. I know that He is faithful and that is just a part of who He is. He decides to be faithful and true to His word because it is in His nature to love us actively. He is consistent in His faithfulness. I feel like it can be easy to forget how consistent He is when we live in an inconsistent world. Consistency is a trait which I greatly admire and want to grow in. I love that we can see a piece of God’s character and He allows us to get excited about it and then helps us pursue it. He’s fueled the passion for consistency in me and then provides a way to understand more and see even more of it Him.
I am blessed beyond measure. I am surrounded by gifts from Him. The people I live with are continually pictures of Jesus by their vulnerability, passion, creativity, and servant-heartedness.
Living on the financial support sure will teach you humility. It’s not uncommon to be in awe of how God provides finance and peace. This trip to Sydney and paying for the passport is quite expensive. It was completely provided for by God and through people who I’m really grateful for and humbled by.
Philippians 3:12-13 have been very important verses to me lately.
“I admit that I haven’t yet acquired the absolute fullness that I’m pursuing, but I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover. I don’t depend on my own strength to accomplish this; however I do have one compelling focus: I forget all of the past as I fasten my heart to the future instead.”
I can’t do squat in my own strength. I am daily reminded that I am in need of God. I need His grace for today and today alone. I need His passion to keep me in action. I am in need of Him because I am so, so in love with Him and all He is. I have a passion for Jesus and I am constantly learning how to pursue Him and love Him better. It’s a genuinely beautiful relationship.
Sometimes it takes an emergency passport trip and some incredibly kind people to learn a bit about God’s character. The beginning of this whole passport ordeal was brutally stressful at first. But Jesus turned it into a sweet, peaceful process of learning to give Him my everything and trust Him with it.
On another note: I miss blogging a lot. I’d like to blog quite a bit more. I feel a bit rusty. This was a short post but I’ll get the hang of it again. Feel free to subscribe for email notifications every time I post!