This week (Week 3 of our DTS) was absolutely amazing in so many ways. Where to begin. I keep coming up with potential beginnings and then thinking of something else that happened beforehand. This week has been a sort of accumulation of my testimony. I don’t have the time, the patience, or ability as of yet to type out my entire testimony but a lot of it is already in this blog and much of it will be posted in later days. So again, I’m processing by writing. I hope this makes sense to some degree.
Jesus has been changing my testimony steadily and quickly. An interesting combination. I’m comfortable in his timing as I’m learning to trust Him. It hardly ever makes sense but the more I experience it, the more I just let go and say “you do it, Jesus!” Cause I sure can’t. The events, words, and story itself have not changed. My story is the same one it’s always been. Except now I see it’s His story. The way that I tell it is different. Sickness, violation, and pain are no longer my story but just the backdrop. My story is redemption, healing, and freedom. It’s the fact that He’s been in every moment, pursuing me since day one. It’s the way He moves even when I can’t see him and how He doesn’t need me to cooperate to have an effect on me. It’s the way He loves and that I can love out of overflow of his love.
This week was Identity Week. I thought I had my identity figured out. Ha! Yeah no. Well, I had a very strong sense of who God is and who I was in Him. What I had not realized is how much healing I still needed. I hadn’t seen yet some of the lies I still lived by.
We spent a few hours in small groups, declaring truths, claiming freedom and defeating lies. It was so fun. Lots of tears, fighting, laughing, and yelling for freedom. Lots of strongholds were broken that day. Jesus has been replacing unhealthy soul ties and lies with himself and it has been so so good. As it’s been nearly a week since I began this post, I can say confidently that I am walking in truth that I had not yet walked in.
This week we are in now is Father Heart of God. It’s been good too. I didn’t expect going into it to gain very much from it. I’m comfortable with God as my father. My earthly father is an amazing man after God’s heart. I don’t have any major healing or anything to sort through. I realize this is a blessing. That’s what he’s been teaching me; I take for granted the wonderful influence my father is.
This week is not done yet, I’ll try to talk more about it in a later post.
Tomorrow we begin outreach ministry. Our teams (mine is 10, including two leaders) will be dropped off in town and we’ll just minister. We’re gonna talk to and love people. Meet people on the street, buy them coffee, pray or just be a friend. I’m so excited to make new friends and grateful for the fact that we can make friendships through YWAM.
There is definitely more to come. It’s been a super busy week but I’ll be posting more starting now. Jesus is good. He pursues and He’s a good dad.